Phir Se….

Posted: May 29, 2013 in Uncategorized


Phir se iss bheed mey aakar tanha sa reh gaya hoon,

Phir se inn anjaan chehro mey ek pehchaan bana raha hoon,

Kuch aisa darr sa gaya hoon, apne iss akelepan se,

Zindagi ki chaav ko andhera samajh baitha hoon,

Kuch aisa Darr sa gaya hoon, apne iss akelepan se,

Zindagi ke andhere mey bhi aankhen bandh kar baitha hoon.

Khwaishon ko adhoora chodkar, phirse chal pada iss raah par,

Khwaishey jo poori hui, unse bhi mooh modkar,

Inn shabdo mey uljhi hai meri  soch aur Kuch darr sa gaya hoon,

Phir se iss bheed mey aakar tanha sa reh gaya hoon,

Phir se inn anjaan chehro mey ek pehchaan bana raha hoon,

There for You

Posted: May 27, 2013 in Uncategorized

Just want you to know I am there.
Moments when you need nobody,
I will be a wall against your shadow.
When you want me to be your man,
I’ll hold you close, soul and body

Just want you to know I am there,
When promises are broken and words hurt,
Will watch you fall yet not letting you break
In your moments of glory, glowing with pride
I’ll stand in the corner, watching you celebrate

Just want you to know I am there,
As you walk away with another man
Waiting for you where you left me,
For you to find me, each time you look back
Just want you to know I am there for you.

Desires & Wisdom

Posted: January 17, 2013 in The Thoughts

Ugly are my words for the wisdom I seek,
Unlike the past, I seek wisdom to the brim,
Withheld are my desires of the past and the future,
Journey towards life through the ruins of Mankind that lived,
I walk, each step stumbling and hurting sense into me; Wiser by the distance.
Locked away somewhere are my desires to live unlike this, Ugly are these desires.

The blazing fire ball had drowned into the sea, like every other day, aftering itself out into a red giant ball. Kaaka, for a long time, used to wonder who or what threw this ball up into the sky from behind the mountains. His curiosity got the better of him; he flew up in the sky. The moment he flew higher than the mountains, he realized that there was nobody behind the mountains; he saw that the fire ball came from far away in the east.

Those were the days when Kaaka was new to flying high and used to get tired quickly, struggling too hard to stay afloat and eventually falling on the ground with a thud. Nothing much has changed except for him giving up sooner, avoiding the struggle and the painful fall.

Sitting on the rope, watching the vast sea and these featherless animals chasing the ball, Kaaka was reassuring him. The ball, unlike the giant one that drowned before the dark, was beaten up by these featherless animals but it never tried escaping. He wondered if what he has planned could be called escaping.
He was waiting for the darkness to engulf the shore. He had his plan in place; he would fly away over the sea and to another land across the sea. He would meet new people out there and come back flying with stories to share. This whole idea of  travelling across to another land was in place because it had made his father a hero. The stories his mother told him seemed fresh as he sat waiting to conquer his fears and find his glory.

As the story goes, his father flew across the sea to a land that was unheard of and some place nobody else had been to. Travelling on the ship’s mast and then flying across the vast ocean he reached a land unknown to and unheard by many.

His father returned after a long time, he had taken up the life of pilgrim and therefore he refused to accept his mother and him as family. He loathed his father but nonetheless he was hero for many, he had stories about the land far away. He had to prove, and not just to his father, even to others that he was not just one amongst them but he was worthy and worth the respect he never got.

He was seeing lights of hope as the darkness engulfed him and the tiny ball went away with the featherless animals, which were until then trashing the life out of him. Such are the strange ways of the world around him, he thought.

Random Thoughts

Posted: October 28, 2012 in The Thoughts

Her warmth and her words, her silent prayers for each day I live. Her smile as she walks past me, leaving me behind with a promise to come back. Her gentle touch as she holds my hand and walks with me through this journey called life. My woman, I haven’t known love more than I have known her.

Unlike the past, broken and lost
Stood by the door, hurting most
She left it open and left alone
No reasons why but she was gone

Neither an option, nor a choice
She was my soul, lost in my voice
Blame, hurt and pain for now
Not sure why for I kept my vow

Wish to walk back in time
To kill this painful rhyme
And walk away from her
To find my rhyme unlike this.

So one of my house mates, the beautiful (now a celebrity after her debut as an actress in the Malayalam cinema) Dominica Mencel has planned to go back to her country, well she is Polish. Oh yes I live with two white chicks and a brown man (I am darker shade of grey so have to respect the superior race or some shit like that). We have a beautiful house, thanks to our beautiful landlady Parvathy Janardhanan.

So to the story, Dominica informed me that she is leaving Kochi this weekend and so she wished to cook dinner for us, also wishing to spend the evening with us. We were game, even after having known her for a long time, because we still have that rush of excitement every time we talk to these white chicks. (Blame the Porn effect or Pron as Varun-the brown guy often pronounces). I was unnaturally sad and soon realized that I would miss some of her funny questions in her beautiful accent. When I say funny questions, I really mean funny. To cite an example “What are you doing with your coconuts?” in a heavy Polish accent that emphasized so much on the nuts. The only thing you can do is to stare at her in disbelief.

So this sadness had to be overcome and so I decided to give her a surprise or more like buy some cake for ourselves to eat after the delicious dinner she had promised.

So, while at work, I call up one of these Bakers and ask them to prepare a cake and make sure that the cake is completely white. The conversation

Me “Please make sure that the cake is completely white”

He “This will be the best cake saar”

Me “Thank you and also, I want  ~Good Bye Hot Chick~ Written on it”

He “Just a minute, let me write it down”

Me “Sure, it is ~Good Bye Hot Chick~ and put that in red”

He “Got it, just come and collect it by 10:00 PM”

Me “Yes, I will but do you want me to send you ~ Good Bye Hot Chick~ in an SMS”

He “Whaaat sir? You will get the best cake tonight”

Well that was an assurance and sounded very promising.

So she cooked the food and all of us were sitting together about to have dinner, suddenly the Promising Baker calls me up and tells me that the Best Cake is ready.

I jump off the bean bag and rush to get the cake. Tell them that I have to meet a friend; the usual Tanya (the other white chick) comments come pouring down on me for being rude and asocial. I ignore her ramblings because she happens to be one of the closest people I am with and I know she can be ignored if and when needed.

I drive to the baker’s and see this guy standing there, he didn’t seem very promising. I tell him that I am the guy who has come for the ‘Hot Chick’ cake.

The cake is packed in a box and with a plastic knife stuck on it. I am impressed but out of excitement and curiosity I ask him, if I can see the cake before I take it home. The guy nods and cut through the thin tape and opens up the ‘Best Cake’ to me, I am not so sure if words can describe the disbelief

This is what it opened to

I am not sure what I was supposed to do; I took the cake and left because they were waiting for me. I wasn’t sure about the reception I would get back at home. I knocked the door and Dominica was happy to see me bring a cake. Tanya was surprised and Varun appreciated the gesture. I asked them to open the box. The only thing I remember is Tanya and Dominica bursting out into a nonstop laughter. It turned out to be the Best Cake Dominica had ever had in India and Tanya has got something to pull my leg for. As for Varun and me, we will go back home today and finish the White Cake sorry the Best Cake.